I swear sometimes I feel like they know when I start to forget about them…when finally everything is going right and I’m finally not hung up in them..they wanna come back in like if my heart or my life had a revolving door…worse part is that I allow it..I’m too fuckin nice and don’t know how to just tell them to fuck off…finally over my first love and that was honestly for the better…but now I have the usual typical guy that walks in and out of my life….he’s the type that knows how to get under my skin the type that makes me melt everytime when he says the right stuff to me..the kind that I only have to see once a year yet I feel the same way each time….the kind that somehow always looks like the victim….Jesus Christ why don’t I freakin learn my lesson?! Why don’t I actually cut him out rather than continue letting him back in my life like an idiot….I’m never gonna meet the right person if I’m still hung up on the same idiots…but maybe these idiots are the ones that are or can be the right person, but the problem is I’m tired of waiting around for them to mold into that….maybe I’m over analyzing EVERYTHING and I need to remind myself that his yearly visits aren’t the same as my yearly check ups